Is the best word to describe how I feel at the moment.
The 411: I started working a full-time graveyard shift at the same company Tim works for. Yes, I'm still doing daycare. Yes, I get a little bit of sleep. My day starts, well actually it doesn't really have an end or a start anymore, it feels like one continuous day. So anyways, I get off work at 7:30AM and make it home by 8AM for my first daycare kid to arrive. I wake Addi and Hally up and we do the normal before school routine. Then off to school they go. Then I come home and my other daycare kid comes. Next we play in the basement while mommy dozes on and off on the couch. Before we know it the kids are home from school and it's lunch time, reading time and homework time. Addi and Hally are begging for a friend to come over, which I generally allow, but only one at a time. Nap time for the little ones is at 1 pm. I have a nap while they're napping. About 2 hours long. Then it's up from nap, snacks, diaper changes, more playing and if I have time I start dinner. Daycare kids leave between 5 & 5:30. I jump in the shower and hit the hay by 6pm. Then I sleep till 10pm, get up and head to work, which starts at 11:00pm. See what I mean about continuous?
WHY?: This job is temporary. We would like to save, save, save for a bigger house/pay off some debt and GET AHEAD. Please tell me you know what I'm talking about when I say it would be nice to get ahead. My plan is to expand my daycare and I need a bigger house to do so. I feel like I could really do well with it. Ideally I'd like to find a house with a finished walkout basement. Daycare would be in the basement and the kids could just walk right outside to play. Then the upstairs would remain untouched. The daycare that I imagine in my head is so fun and beautiful!! :) So anyways, off to work I go so I can hopefully make this vision a reality!
What I'm doing: It's a manual labor job. I'm lifting and operating giant machines all night. It's actually kind of cool. I feel cool anyways. I'm the only girl in my area, which is a little intimidating, but I'm handling it. The whole graveyard thing actually isn't as bad as it seems and the pay is pretty good.
What I've learned: -It's tough to be a full-time work outside the home mom. Kudos to all those who do it. All the time I used to have for everything fun, is now gone. I keep telling myself this is temporary and I can do it!!! -I've also learned how to use calipers AND it's nearly impossible to get 2, small, curiously, insanely, strong, magnets apart. They're dangerous buggers and caused me multiple blood blisters. I'm tougher than I thought and I kind of like working where I do. If I can't preform all of the tasks I will be moved to another area. I totally want to learn how to use the huge and scary looking machines. I want to be the cool girl that can run the machines! :) -I look so hot in safety glasses! *sarcasm* :D
What I'm thankful for: -TIM. He tried to talk me out of it, but I'm a stubborn one and wanted to work graveyards anyways. He's been such a good help to hurry me off to bed when he gets home. He makes dinner for himself and the kids, then puts them to bed when it's time. He always has the house tidy when I wake up. He's perfect! Love him! This working mom business is a serious sacrifice for EVERYONE in our house. Not just myself! -I am also thankful for Beyonce. For some reason her CD (I know, I'm probably the only one out of everyone reading this that still listens to CD's) helps to keep me awake on the way to and from work. -5 hour energy. Half a bottle of this stuff gives me a good boost to finish my early morning at work. -My kids have been really sweet and understanding. Love them so much! Addi said on my first night at work, "Mom, you don't need to work, I like our house and want to stay here. We don't need a bigger house." She also told me several times to drive safely. She was very concerned about me.
Goodnight all. I better catch up on some sleep while I can.
***I always proof read my posts like 3 times, but I don't have time tonight so please excuse any errors.***
